"Terrified"

"Terrified"

I'm terrified of myself I was always to blame

Deep down in my soul made to feel so much shame

Sometimes I am sinking into a deep, deep dark hole

It's a rocky road ahead not feeling very close to God

Feeling lonely I'd say most times with things going through my mind

Feeling empty on the inside as I'm figuring out life

Sometimes I won't admit it when I'm not in control

Like a whirlwind, blowing, spinning as it penetrates my soul

Sometimes I look for God I keep thinking He don't care

It's just another fleeting moment as I'm pulling out my hair

It's the words that we say as we're passing through this life

They cut deep into your heart just sharp as a knife

Sometimes it leaves a wound and sometimes it leaves a scar

Swirling around inside your mind telling us who we are

Just like poison in our veins we scream, we scream and we cry

It is then that it kills us as we give up and die

Written by Chris Turner

October 30th, 2015